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(no subject) [Apr. 7th, 2005|05:06 pm]
Jackie
Come join this community! Its awesome!
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THE BASSLINE DINNER WAS GREAT~! [Apr. 3rd, 2005|01:32 am]
Jackie
[I am feeling |crazycrazy]

Heres a ton of me before I left for dinner!
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Pics of MEEE! [Apr. 3rd, 2005|01:30 am]
Jackie
[I am feeling |awakeawake]

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(no subject) [Mar. 29th, 2005|08:44 pm]
Jackie
[I am feeling |accomplishedIts about time!]

FINALLY~! After the bajillionth time... I got my pics to work! here they are kids!</p> Read more...Collapse )
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There's light in the iddle of the tunnel!?!?!? [Mar. 20th, 2005|10:46 pm]
Jackie
[I am feeling |chipperchipper]

Ok so. As of Sat... things are better with me and Rob.. its magical... don't ask wat happened... cuz I don't know either. Well. Me and Rob went out for awards and verry HOTTLY saluted Dan... now... DAYMMMM you shoulda seen it... soooooo hot. OMG and... I have FANS! The kiddies from Ustach love me! They sent out an airgram when we were going on. "Ustach loves the girl in the purple shirt!" Annie " That must be JACKIE!"(announcer=annie) and random guys in the crowd, "HI JACKIE!" Me "HI....!....?...!!!!!" haha good times good times. Drumline = 1st place... haha only ones in our division but Concert percussion took first too! AND THEY BEAT MO HI! YESSSSSSSSSS!!!!! we fully rocked sox there. Sweetness. laters... just a quickie today kids! hahah!
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Story of a sad girl (ME) [Mar. 18th, 2005|10:43 pm]
Jackie
[I am feeling |depresseddepressed]

So its been a while since I posted. (I just wrote a VERY long entry... silly me hit the refresh and lost it all so heres shot numero dos) Sadly, I do not have stories of good times and friendship to report to you all. But.... theres always DRUMLINE!... ummm no. Drumline = bad. Do you all remember the time of my depression days? Well, I do. I have been happy for so damn long... seems like... but now i'm slipping back down the sad path of depression. When I was in that stage fresh/soph year... this is how my life would be. I would lock myself in my room all summer... not eat, shower, or talk... i'd just cry. Yes I admit... NO SHOWERING FOR LIKE A WEEK AT A TIME!... well you know I don't give a shit thats the way it was and yeah. I was very sick. I used to do a litttttttle bit of the cutting thing but I was never too big on that thing... it was just something to do when I was bored. (8th grade was a diff. story) If you have noticed that i've been missing from school ALOT lately... well thats why. Depression. Shall I spell it out to you? Is that not a cue that something is wrong? When I come to school one day and said yeah I slept till 2 PM and then am missing again the next day!? Well yes... things aren't going so well right now and there is something wrong. The thing that makes me most happy in life is now ruining me. I feel so alone when i'm at drumline. Like everyone has thier own lil group or pair thing going on and somehow I missed the memo on the day we decided that. I feel like I have no friends in the line anymore especailly because I lost another trio friendship. Me, Rob and Maddy. (Me, Josh and Tito was the other) I thought me Rob and Madd would be hecka tight and I thought they were sum of my best friends... wow... was I wrong. One day, the day of the Fresno show... Rob decided to like... hang out with Carolyn in the RV all day. Well... everyone else was like nowhere to be found and I was alone at the trailors all day watching perc ensemble. That day I had a episode where I couldn't hold myself up anymore (allergic reaction to my meds) and I almost beefed it at rehearsal B4 we went on. Well, you know I though some of my friends would stick with my to see if i'm ok... but no.. I guess thats the booster's job huh? So I felt VERY alone... hence I was... and thats when it started. Thats the Day Rob started pushing me away. I didn't think much of it till now. More and moe Rob started to push me and Maddy out of the picture... till like... we dont' even speak... At the JOHO show I cried... because I couldn't take it anymroe. I expected Rob to be more mature than Krum and not be a silent asshole. I just couldn't bare it ne more.. if its not a problem with Krum its Rob... if Maddy isn't sick.. someone else is. WTF? I just... *cries* can't take it anymore. WHY? FUCKING WHY? I miss Madd and Rob... I miss our lil trio... I really do. But... I don't think it will ever be again. Rob hates me... I don't know why... Maddy is kinda just... I dunno sick and not really there ne more.. Krum... is Krum... and i'm just alone. I love my friends to death and I would never intentionally do ne thing to bother them or anger them... I don't know why they just turn on me!? Everyone in the line... nobody really talks to me much ne more... i'm not asking to be the center of attention.. I just wanted to be treated with a little acknowledgement ya know? I want my things to be better... but I just don't care ne more... drumline shmumline... yada yada... Someone ALWAYS has to have a problem... *more tears* I don't know what to do... well you know what? Its my turn now bitches.
Eat shit.

Peace niggers.
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Good shit... 101 [Mar. 2nd, 2005|04:14 pm]
Jackie
[I am feeling |blahhomework... sucks]
[Im Listening to |yeah.. Cajun Folk Songs 1.. again!]

101 things about me


now you know 101 more stuff about mee... ABOUT ME:

[[ 1 > NAME: Jackie, McJackie, McJ

[[ 2 > BIRTHDAY: Aug.

[ 3 > HEIGHT: 5 ' 7

[[ 4 > SHOE SIZE: 9-91/2

[[ 5 > EYE COLOR: blue

[[ 6 > HAIR COLOR: blonde

[[ 7 > BEEN KISSED: yes

[[ 8 > DONE DRUGS: nah

[[ 9 > BEEN ON STAGE: I live there what do you think!??

[[ 10 > HAD SEX: heh.... uhm... no but there was this one time I had a 3sum... does that count? LOL (inside jk)

[[ 11 > BEEN DUMPED: yeah....

[[ 12 > GOTTEN INTO AN ACCIDENT: nope

[[ 13 > EATEN AN ENTIRE BOX OF SWEETSa.: no cept for the personal sized ones my mommie gets me for V day.... lol like... 5 pieces ppl!

[[ 14 > DYED YOUR HAIR: not ever allowed

[[ 15 > CHOKED INFRONT OF SOMEONE: everytime I drink something in public I choke... haha

[ 16 > WENT TO SCHOOL IN YOUR PJ'z: on pj day

[[ 17 > GOTTEN DETENTION: no hehehe losers

[[ 18 > LOVED SOMEONE SO MUCH THAT MADE YOUR CRY: omfg... yes

[[ 19 > DO YOU LIKE SOMEONE RIGHT NOW: yea

[[ 20 > DO THEY KNOW: uh... yes and no... theres more than 1!!!

[[ 21 > WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN THE OPPOSITE SEX: PERSONALITY!-- Humor... omg have to be sick minded and funny like me! and uhm... caring, trustworthy, and yeah... you can't be a total dogg... so... looks are kinda important.

[[ 22 > COULD SEE YOURSELF MARRYING THAT SPECIAL PERSON: sorta...
PICK ONE:

[[ 23 > COLD // HOT: COLD... I mean... hottnes... u can only take off so much!

[[ 24 > BLACK // WHITE: black... it looks better on me

[[ 25 > RAIN // SNOW: rain... I fear snow

[[ 26 > GIVE // RECEIVE: give... recieving is nice... but giving is better

[[ 27 > WOOL // COTTON: COTTON OMG... cept for mi lettermen.. its hawt

[[ 28 > ROSE // DAISY: Rose!

[[ 29 > PRIVATE // PUBLIC SCHOOL: public... private schools are fucked up worse then public...

[[ 30 > PLAIN // CHOCOLATE MILK: hm.... choc I guess.... I like both

[[ 31 > HISTORY // SCIENCE: science... lol I suck at both

[[ 32 > MATH // ENGLISH: ENGLISH!!!!!! omg... Math... I AM HORRIBLE WITH!

[[ 33 > SPRING // FALL: fall, the air is cool and the trees are all pretty and stuffs.

[[ 34 > ROCK // COUNTRY: ROCK!!!!!

[[ 35 > PEPSI // COKE: Coke!!!!!!!!

[[ 36 > LOVE // LUST: Love ofcourse!

[[ 37 > EAT // SLEEP: SLEEEEEEEEEP

FRIENDS:

[[ 38 > WHO DO YOU SEE THE MOST: The Drumline... mostly Madd and Robbie

[[ 39 > WHO IS THE MOST ANNOYING: Justin LOL

[[ 40 > WHO DO YOU WISH TO SEE MORE OFTEN: Alyssa... my best friend who goes to downey

[[ 41 > WHO DO YOU E-MAIL THE MOST: Steven/Austin... lol I don't e mail ppl really... got nuttin to say but I don't call those cats much so I just e mail um

[[ 42 > WHO'S THE LOUDEST: ROB!!!!!! FETTICHINI!!!!!!!! sp?

[[ 43 > WHO'S THE SHYEST: Nicole

[[ 44 > WHO ARE YOU JEALOUS OF: Maddy, shes beautiful, smart, liked by all and has a wonderful boyfriend there for her always... oh... and IM HER FRIEND... thats the big one... Whew... w/o me... lol haha no... jk LUV YA

[[ 45 > WHO GOTS THE BEST ROOM: UHH........ Alyssa lol
[[ 46 > WHO'S THE HORNYEST: Yeah... Kenny

[[ 47 > WHO DO YOU TRUST THE MOST: Rob, Maddy, Squee, and Amanda

[[ 48 > WHO KNOWS YOU THE BEST: Alyssa... what are BEST friends for? lol

[[ 49 > WHO'S YOUR BEST FRIEND: Alyssa, Rob & Maddy

[[ 50 > WHO DID YOU HAVE A SERIOUS TALK WITH: Squee! LOL for like 2 hours!

[[ 51 > WHO GETS ALONG W/ YOUR PARENTS: everyone... cept my dad hates Charli... and my mom... but she's not really a friend.. LOL

[[ 52 > WHO HUGGED YOU THE MOST: Rob & McMaddy

[[ 53 > WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST: Alyssa.... but then Krum... I miss the Krum we had that one saturday.... it was amazing

[[ 54 > WHO FOUGHT W/ YOU THE MOST: Krum

[[ 55 > WHO ARGUE W/ YOU THE MOST: Krum

[[ 56 > FAVORITE FRIENDS OF THE OPPOSITE SEX: Rob and Squee and Steven
DO YOU LIKE TO:

[[ 57 > GIVE HUGS: yes it not only makes the other person feel better but it gives me a sence of security too.

[[ 58 > GIVE BACK RUBS: Yeah sure... if they don't pop a bonner... *cough* Kenny!

[[ 59 > TAKE WALKS IN THE RAIN IN: Yes

[[ 60 > WATCH TV: Whats that? Is that like a drum?

[[ 61 > GO TO THE BEACH: Haven't in a long time! Since my fresh year w/ Thissen @ Santa Cruz lol!!!!!!

[[ 62 > DO HOMEWORK: Ugh... thats what i'm supposed to be doing right now!

[[ 63 > PLAY IN THE SNOW: No.......

[[ 64 > WORK OUT: eh... times... times.... lol

[[ 65 > TALK ON THE PHONE: Heh yeah right... not ne more... y brother will never get off the internet for more than 5 min... if he does... he will unplug my phone line to get on the internet in the middle of a conversation!

[[ 66 > STAY UP ALL NIGHT TALKIN TO A FRIEND: lol if from like 11:30- 12:45 counts SQUEE!

[[ 67 > GO ONLINE: Yup

[[ 68 > BE KISSED: yup

[[ 69 > DO WEIRD // FREAKY THANGS: ofcourse!!!!! lol

[[ 70 > BE WILD: mostly!

WHICH ONE OF YOUR FRIENDS:

[[ 71 > IS MOST LIKELY TO BECOME A MODEL: Maddy... shes a nut in front of the camara!

[[ 72 > HAVE KNOWN YOU THE LONGEST: Alyssa

[[ 73 > DO YOU KNOW MOST BOUT: alyssa
HAVE YOU EVER:

[[ 74 > BEEN TO A CONCERT: Yeah!

[[ 75 > BEEN OUTTA STATE: yesh

[[ 76 > GONE SKINNY DIPPIN: heh yes....

[[ 77 > RAN ROUND NAKED: when I was like 5! and under lol

[[ 78 > BROKEN A BONE: No *knock on wood!*

[[ 79 > CHEATED ON A TEST: yup/ kinda

[[ 80 > RAN A MARATHON: LOL NO!!!!!

[[ 81 > MET A FAMOUS PERSON: Yeaya!

[[ 82 > BOUGHT SOMETHING AND SOLD IT: Sure... garage sale?

[[ 83 > STOLE FROM SOMEONE OR SOMEWHERE: from somewhere... lol and yeah.... i was a stupid kid ok!

[[ 84 > STALKED SOMEONE: Not my doings... been on a stalking adventure! well... MANY... Alyssa's sister stalks her gynocalugists!!!!!!!!!! and all other doctors... creepy... yes I know!

YOUR LOVE LIFE:

[[ 85 > SINGLE OR TAKEN: Single and dandy

[[ 86 > IF YOU WERE TO GO OUT W/ ANYONE, WHO: LOL! funny! nah thats definitely confidential!

[[ 87 > HAVE YOU EVER HAD AN ONLINE RELATIONSHIP: omg... yeah...

[[ 88 > BAD HABITS: Anger problems!!!!!

[[ 89 > MAKES YOU MADD: People deliberately ignoring me!

[[ 90 > SCARIEST MOMENTS: When it was raining and my brother got online at MJC and said I have to come get him and I had to go to practice then... and my parents were out of town! So I was driving in the rain and some ASSHOLE runs a red light and I almost hit him!!!!!
[[ 91 > WHERE ARE YOU: dinning area... where the comp is...

[[ 92 > ARE YOU WEARIN ANY JEWLERIES: a ring I never take off... a toe right I never take off and my earing in my 2nd holes I never take out! LOL

[[ 93 > LAST TIME YOU SHOWERED: Last night... i'm a night showerer

[[ 94 >WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR PANTS: Black w/ tiny ass lil silver pinstripes

[[ 95 > WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENIN TO RIGHT NOW: nada

[[ 96 > LAST THING YOU SAID: I AM DOING HOMEWORK!!!!! lol!

[[ 97 > COMPUTER DESK IS MADE OF: Metal

[[ 98 > LAST THING YOU ATE: salami nad swiss sandwich!

[[ 99 > WHAT YOU REALLY WANA DO RIGHT NOW: SLEEEEEEEEEEEP

[[ 100 > WHAT COLOR OF CRAYON WOULD YOU WANA BE: Black... cuz everyone needs a black crayon!

[[ 101 > IF YOU COULD CHOOSE TO LIVE W/ SOMEONE FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE WHO WOULD IT BE: Tito! I hecka <33333 him! and he's gay... thats makes it all the better!!!!
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Depression has flooded my gates way past hell. [Feb. 22nd, 2005|04:16 pm]
Jackie
[I am feeling |depresseddepressed]
[Im Listening to |Cajun Folk Songs I- the most beautiful sax solo song EVER...]

It seems as if I'll post about this fantastic drum rehearsal.... then I post about how horrid it is... I mean... GODDAMN if it would just stay on the GOOD track... we used to have hope...

Well... I got a break from my "real life"... I got to see what it was like to be a happy for a while. Yeah i'm sad its gone... very sad... yeah... i'm depressed again... hello world... i'm back.
Heh at least I know how to do this... --X myspace http://profiles.myspace.com/users/18731957
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This thingy... uh huh! [Feb. 16th, 2005|06:38 pm]
Jackie
[I am feeling |calmso cool]
[Im Listening to |I don't know the name lol 104.1... hehe]

[01] Reply with your name and I will write something about you.

[02] I will then tell what song[s] remind me of you.

[03] Next, I will tell you who you remind me of, celebrity/animated or otherwise.

[04] Last, I will try to name a single word that best describes you.

[05] Put this in your journal!
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(no subject) [Feb. 13th, 2005|01:29 am]
Jackie
[I am feeling |awakeawake]
[Im Listening to |I can still her the drumline in my head... its a curse?]

I feel so fucking awesome today!

Today was a great day. The bassline had a bonding experience today at McDonalds! lol I love them soooooooooo much!!!!! Yes, even Krum. IT was just soooo cute how we walked around holding eachother and being in step ALL DAY! It was hella fun! OMG and the pictures.... WHEW! Thems be HOTT! heheheeeheheheheeeeeeeee! So effing awesome... I love the end of the show too! SOOOOOO much fun. hehe... we have a bassline sleep over at the end! HAHA so comfy! Drumline is getting progressively better for me. I have more and more fun every day and I look foreward to it now. The bassline is becoming alot stronger then we were like a week or two ago and its feeling good. We aren't fighting anymore and have set leaders. Its like.... ALL GOOD!! :)!!!!! *knock on wood!*

But... there is always a price to pay... i'm up right now because i'm like.... in sooooooo much pain... i'm soooo exhausted... but I hurt to bad to sleep. I'm sooo uncomfortable. *cries* but i'm sooooooooo sleepy.... :( oy... I'm so dehydrated! I am like ALWAYS thirsy... is that weird? I gotta get a drink as soon as I update this damn thing....!

=O! hehe on another good note... tomorow I get to go SHOPPING!!!!!!!!! NEW SHOES.... EFFING SHOES! ... no more SANDALS! I GET SHOES! YESSSSSSSSSSSSS! hehe OH OH OH! AND..... IM CUTTING MY HAIR OFF!!!!! OFF I SAY OFF! ok... now i'm like going all psyco. The weird thing is though... when people type weird stuff like that... well me at least... I just sit here with a blank, droneish, stare and keep typing. Wow... i'm tired. I keep RAMBLING on and on and on..... o it just hit me... i'm out for the count. After I get a drink.

LOVE TO THE BASSLINE!
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